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Lord, i find myself trying to quickly close the last chapter of my life. i still find it hard to put words to everything i experienced and the pain i endured for weeks – no, months. crying out, reaching out, wondering where you were in all of this. but Lord, as i laugh from the […]
Read morethe closer i get to 30, the more i seem to loathe every decision i’ve made until this point. the friends i’ve made or lost, the classes i took in college, the relationships i’ve chosen to give myself to, etc. i’ve never been able to look back and appreciate a situation in the past. at […]
Read morehave you ever seen a train crash? those videos of cars just driving, and whether it be at the fault of the conductor, logistical operator, or the car driver, the damage is instant. blink an eye, and life is different. why is that how life feels right now? how have i lost heart so instantly?
Read morein my recent season of college applications, i’ve been finding great frustration at my lack of eloquence when it comes to preparing essays. part of the blame can be credited to the daunting abstract prompts facing me, but a large part of the reality is likely my lack of recent exposure to great literature. my […]
Read morelately, i’ve been exposed to a lot of desires to go back to what once was, expectations for what could be, and disappointment from lack of recognition, value, apologies, or love from others. it’s making me realize the importance of holding fast to the Truth that God is perfect, God is love — i am […]
Read more21 things learned at 21: people act differently when they’re hurting always assume positive intent never disagree with a bts fan every season matters if you make it matter i am capable of so much more than i know… …but can do nothing without Jesus move on quickly if you can’t change the situation be […]
Read moreit’s almost 2020. every year, it feels like january 1st hits me out of nowhere. every year, i sit back and consider my growth. i revisit my greatest challenges, think back to the lowest points of my life, celebrate my highest peaks, appreciate my dearest loved ones, mourn over heartbreaking memories, etc. i’m fairly confident […]
Read morei reached into my sock drawer and grabbed the first pair of socks that touched my fingertips. i pulled the pink and green striped socks over one of my feet. “ugh… these socks are so worn out… why do i still have them?” then it hit me – i remember pulling these socks out of […]
Read more“what’s the worst feeling in the world?” this question has always been easy to answer. no doubt. disappointment. it goes both ways – i don’t want to be disappointed, and i sure as hell don’t want to be a disappointment. and yeah, that also means i don’t quite allow myself to feel happy — it’s […]
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